Have you ever wondered if we, our God centered culture, has lost touch with surrender? I know I have. I think am scared to lose control. letting go is the hardest when all you've ever been taught was to hold on and control your surroundings. I've tried to control my desire to sin. I've tried to keep from being arrogant. I feel like my greatest sin, as hudson taylor put it, is disbelief. I dont really believe that God loves me and can handle my faithless rebellious spirit. How then do we teach youth groups and such to live? we either a) tell them they are desperately wicked and need to get themselves right with God, or b) act like they will get it and dance around the subject. Pulpits convince others that there are steps to take for better connections with God. When have we said to let go? I mean think about it, when you love someone do you deliberately hurt them (in a healthy relationship)? The more you lovesoneone the less you desire to cause them harm, the more you trust them to be faithful. I dont need programs to help me figure out God or what is desire is for me. it will never happen. I need Him. I need him to hold me and convince me that he is faithful and i am not worthless. He will win our hearts if we would let him. Jesus came to serve, and if we let him love us, and learn to love ourselves, we will stop trying to save our skin and really serve others. Stop trying...just surrender.