Master. I have sinned against you. I am not getting any better. my righteousness is foolishness. I can not do this. I can not make myself free. I can not motivate myself, infact even a fleeting moment of your glorious presence is not enough for me to find myself free. I need you to come and be lasting to me. I need you to come and hold on. Do not let me fall, i ask this because I know when you are near my heart grows increasingly tender to the needs of those around me. Help me and show up! Let me have a day of your mercy and tenderness. Allow me a day long experience of your presence. I'm not asking for a year, I do not want to ask for more (for you know my needs), I want to have a constant day of determination and self discipline and holy love for the sake of the lost ones. The sheep who have wandered off and can not find their way back. Lord save me from myself and the death that i cause. Please be near. your presence is my joy.