I'm starting to believe that it's not about being perfect...
Its about being humble enough to admit your not.

Please pray for me as I am trying to surrender. I have no idea how to give all of me. I am seeing how much I need grace. This is a beautiful thing even though it means turning off the perfectionist mindset. this is where life is to me now.

I needed you and you came to me.
I felt alone and you filled my heart with your peace.
I asked for you and I ran in disbelief

Lord, I have run from you and loved safety instead of you.
I have worried about tomorrow and gave myself to fear.
As I was in the desert, I am desperately wicked.
I have not believed that you are good.
Lord, please forgive my doubts and save me from wandering
My soul wells up and I plead with you to hold me.
I am ashamed of who I have been. Teach me to trust you
help me to see your beauty as you overwhelm me with truth.
Teach me to tell others of your love.
I need you and I cannot do this on my own
I confess that I am lost in Sinai. Help me find my home
You are my father and my soul is healed by your name.

so my brakes failed in my car this weekend. I have no idea what to do. Im trying to focus on his provisions in the past that I would not be overwhelmed.