your light affects me very deeply Jesus. Jesus I long to be more like you, loving and gracious, and violent with the gates of hell. You are my true joy and in nothing else have I found life... What I long for is a deepness that changes my heart. I have spent so many times taking your love, allowing it to bring me to tears, and then loose sight of this within an hour. I long that this love would be with me, driving this hell from my hands and my heart.

Jesus I miss you... let my longing pay this tribute.
I have never known the depths that I trust I will see soon. In your arms I am alive.